As most know I am homeless with 8 dogs, recently lost 3 dogs in less than a week, 2 of whom were murdered. All of this is not something that happened overnight: I got involved in a rescue fiasco scam with 2 dogs in North Carolina, where I was charged a pull fee, a transport fee, many other transport posting fees & finally just got frustrated & decided to drive down there myself from Seattle to just get them, where my car broke down in the deserts of Utah, thank God I networked with the mormon church who flew me via puddle jumpers back home & had my car delivered to the other side of the state, but cost me every cent I got in donations as well as 1800.00 of my own money. I was never able to recover from there while trying to keep up with rent, & vet bills for my own terminal & foster dogs as well as my rescue efforts in this state. At around the same time I moved into a home where we now know the manager was coming in my house when I wasn't home through a stairway that went up to the attic from the garage, he stole rent money, records, & other very strange personal items, but I always kept money in money orders & when I found out someone had tried to cash them it was his name on them, so I had them refunded & he stole them again. He kept telling the post office I moved so I couldn't get the money orders returned so that I had to use a friends address, he got crazier & crazier & would show up when my husband was gone & walk right into my house or use his key to come in if the door was locked. Several times he let all the dogs out of the house, & at one point blocked me in the driveway while I was trying to get a dog in the full throws of a seizure to the emergency vet, who later died. He went through all my property in the garage & destroyed it all, finally he took our door off & stole our license plate off of our car, but was finally nice enough to leave his big fat hand prints all over the place. He called animals control & told them my dogs & walls were covered with feces, but in doing that he TOLD the animal control officer he comes in the house all the time & sees the dogs in this condition, so the dumb ass actually signed a statement that he had been coming in my house & that he destroyed my property in the garage!!! We were not able to move & didn't pay the rent for December, & he went to court to get me evicted without me knowing it, but I had already planned on leaving on the 14th, but on the 11th he came into my house & strangled my helpless deformed little bulldogs. Now where are the local Barney Fife's? Well they would never take a report, always said it was a civil matter until he took the door off, turned off the water & stole our license plate & I had to have a royal hissy fit for over 2 hours before they would even lift any prints. The night the bulldogs were murdered they said they couldn't do anything if I had no proof who did it. When they would come out they would coach him on what not to say & what to say!!! I have found another house, paid the deposit but still have to come up with the first & last months rent by Jan,1st & I did not have enough money to get my dogs ashes back, so all I could do was pay for them to get cremated, unless I come up with 260.00 more dollars, but as it is right this moment I am living in the car with 8 dogs & 2 cats, 3 dogs are terminally ill, so any money I come across usually goes to the vet, & everyone needs shots & rabies coming up this month which is going to be another 200.00 Now you would think that this would be very horrible, but it actually is not, the dogs think we're camping, we have all the food & supplies we need & most can't be very active so I leash up 2 or 3 at a time & we go for walks, I also get to spend a lot more time with them, plus we all get to snuggle all night long. There is a park that is fenced we go to for a couple hours everyday, where they can play & get some socializing in, even the cats think it's a great deal! It is kind of hard to feel too sorry for myself sleeping in the Wal-Mart parking lot when there are families with small children in the same place who have no food money or friends they can go hang out with for the day. As for me, i can not seem to come out of my grief for my bullies, I can still smell them, I cry myself to sleep & even though everyone says it wasn't my fault that he did that, I still will always feel guilty for not being able to protect them because if i wouldn't have gotten caught up in the North Carolina crap I would've had the money to move once he started getting abusive & looney & my babies would still be alive. Today I am going to animal control to get the statement he filled out, making a report to them about what he did & going to the state patrol to file a report & I have at least one reporter trying to help me with this as well & recently contacted another channel about it as well. I am going to sue him at the very least & make sure he is prosecuted for theft & when or if he goes to jail i am going to write every inmate at the King County Jail to tell them what he did & then he is on his own. If I didn't have dogs who still need me, this would be a news story, an ugly one, but the only thing he cares for is money, so all I can do is take that from him, it will never bring my babies back. I did CPR on them for over 3 hours until my husband drug me away from them, as I washed their precious little bodies, wrapped them & blessed them, I prayed to die too. I slept next to them hoping I would wake up & it would all be just a nightmare, but it wasn't, money can not replace them, another bully can not replace them, nothing in this world can replace them. I will get some kind of justice for them, but that won't bring them back. to some people they are "just dogs" to me they are my babies, helpless precious defenseless innocent little souls who didn't deserve any of this, so please when I ramble, when I cry, when I obsess, when I rant, when I go ballistic, please be patient with me. I've never dealt with this before, they were stolen from me, their lives were stolen, there was no cancer, it wasn't old age, it wasn't a failing heart, it was murder, it was violence in it's darkest form. As a child I watched my dad torture & murder all of my animals, watched as we left the migrant fields & my little dogs would run behind our truck while I screamed for them, I watched so many horrors, in rescue I see so many things on a daily basis that I think I will go insane before old age ever comes for me, but my own animals have kept me sane so far. Now they are gone, the last 2 I have will soon succumb to their failing bodies, & then I don't know what I will do. I am doing the best I can to hold it together, so for all the people who want to judge, or point fingers you should know how inconsequential you really are, there is nothing you can say or do that would make me feel any worse than I already do, nothing. To all who have supported me during this time emotionally I will never be able to thank you in words, but I know you want me to continue to rescue, so I will get up, I will work through my grief & I will continue to help
animals as much as I can, but I still need time to grieve....